THE PAIN BODY FREESTYLES, by LOSTBOYEVSKY 🖤

THE PAIN BODY FREESTYLES

by LOSTBOYEVSKY 🖤

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1.	ALCHEMY 00:34	buy track
2.	PROM QUEEN I 02:13	buy track
3.	PAIN 03:26
4.	SHADOW WORK 03:46
5.	PROM QUEEN II 02:00
6.	CATHARSIS 02:41
7.	PURGE 03:22	buy track
8.	VENTILATION /// [note to self: when things fall apart go into the places that scare you and feel your feelings fully without judging them] 03:46
9.	KNOW THAT YOU ARE 01:52
10.	IS LIFE SICK TWISTED VIDEO GAME /// [note to self: "all judgment is self-judgment." all hatred is self-hatred] 02:24
11.	PROM QUEEN III 01:58
12.	THANK YOU ECKHART TOLLE 03:36
13.	BUDDHISM FOR VAMPIRES /// [note to self: the parts of you that you least want to look at are the parts most in need of your unconditional love] 02:52
14.	THANK YOU ECKHART TOLLE, CARL JUNG, DAVID HAWKINS, PEMA CHODRON, JED MCKENNA, OSHO, FRIEDRICH NIETZSCHE, LAO TZU, AYAHUASCA, PSILOCYBIN 03:57
15.	LIFE GETS COMPLICATED 06:30
16.	FEELING BETTER NOW 01:57
17.	RESILIENCE /// [note to self: "just stay at the center of the circle and let all things take their course."] 02:46
18.	IT'S PROBABLY ACTUALLY GOING TO BE OKAY /// [note to self: thank you mom, dad, anna, mike, joe, gma, gpa, gma, gpa, maggie, sadie, buddy, family, aileen, marie lou, jon, chelsea, cory, chris, shane, delia, eric, barine, ellen, mike, maria, marybeth, jacki, elena, callie, and all the rest] 02:00

about

This album is an exercise in alchemical transmutation of the shadow and the pain body. It contains the rawest, most vulnerable, intensely emotional, and pain-filled music I have ever recorded. These stream-of-consciousness freestyles were all recorded during some of the most painful experiences of my life.

I recommend treating this album as a meditation, lying down and listening to it in the dark with headphones, and feeling your body deeply during the process. Feel whatever comes up fully, without judging it. The feeling is the healing. This can be a highly powerful practice of shadow work, shadow transmutation and re-integration, to help you reclaim lost Power and heal emotional-energetic wounds.

I'm doing something new where I don't simply make the full album immediately free to stream. You can taste test it by listening to the first three tracks, but for now if you want to take the full deep dive you will have to invest $25 or more.

I am doing this to honor my art and the sacredness of what i have shared here and to hopefully begin contributing to a shift back toward truly valuing our art and not simply giving it all away for free. Gifts are certainly beautiful but we artists deserve to be Divinely Compensated for what we share. It is natural, when we are pouring so much of ourselves into our work, for energy to recirculate back to us, and when this energy comes in the form of financial resources, we can reinvest in ourselves and spend more time creating / bringing more of our Souls into this world.

Thank you for listening and investing in your own healing process. Making this project was a huge catharsis for me, and I truly hope it gives you something. 🖤

Love,
JB

credits

released March 25, 2020

ALL RAPS BY LOSTBOYEVSKY, ALL SONGS FREESTYLED OFF THE TOP, STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS STYLE

BEAT PRODUCTION BY egoid (soundcloud.com/egoid), reasxn (soundcloud.com/reasnn/popular-tracks), Larhythmix (larhythmix.bandcamp.com), and LOSTBOYEVSKY

RECORDED, ARRANGED, MIXED, MASTERED BY LOSTBOYEVSKY

COVER ART BY LOSTBOYEVSKY

Love you <3