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'FRAGMENTED' is an EP about uncertainty, cognitive dissonance, fragmentation of identity, suffering, heartbreak, and the oft-overwhelming process of attempting to synthesize a coherent worldview or life-meaning from the various intermelding oceans of context and culture through which we swim in 2016. it was "born in a nightmare," as Open Mike Eagle might say.

if you look closely enough, it's also probably about love and fun and peace and laughter and joy and all that good stuff.

it's also about whatever you want it to be about, or whatever it seems to be about to you. i put a lot of me-stuff into this artifact, and i hope it gives you something.

luv,
jordan

: > > : amor fati : < < :

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released March 8, 2016

ALL BEATS PRODUCED BY: OPHELIA DIES --- soundcloud.com/ophelia-dies

VOCALS: LOSTBOYEVSKY

FEATURING: malik trips --- maliktrips.bandcamp.com

COVER ART BY: LOSTBOYEVSKY

ALT COVER ART BY: LOSTBOYEVSKY / Christopher Kerouac (aka OGALALA --- soundcloud.com/ogalala)

MIXED BY: LOSTBOYEVSKY / malik trips

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Track Name: EVRY1 U KNO STARING NAKED INTO MIRRORS
rapping alone, dark loft drinking dark beer
everyone you know staring naked into mirrors
i built a blanket fort to hide from my fears
everyone you know staring naked into mirrors

one time i bathed naked in a jungle stream
befuddle teen drama stars with muddled schemes
cuddle queens who like to play chess and eat springrolls
the motto's probably obey less and fling soul
sandwiches i think i'm tao lin + nat king cole
my lingo is gingko tree organic spring flow
Bingo! Congrats, you won a telescreen
This is an elegy for melancholy pedigrees
The purple teletubby snapping selfies in Tel Aviv
Bella from Twilight in a knife fight with Extra P
c'est la vie, ships comprised of peanut butter and celery
Jester-freak but fit in this void like pit in nectarine
Or mango plum cherry peach mulberry kumkwat
Dumb thoughts like a polyglot writing a fun plot
In which spongebob stares so long at a sun spot
That he realizes he's lived his whole life on a lunchbox
I punched thought-policemen in their petuitary glands
and lived half my life vagabonding in imaginary lands
no oculus rift, sent an innocuous .GIF of
an ostrich's hip to Waka Flaka's flip phone
then slipped home on a quick drone while watching an eclipse float over a crypt, whoa

rapping alone, dark loft drinking dark beer
everyone you know staring naked into mirrors
i built a blanket fort to hide from my fears
everyone you know staring naked into mirrors

Bought a mans best friend robot, disabled piss mode
Thawed a self-indulgent melancholy after my bliss froze
Google image search the painting 'corporate kiss', bro
Then listen to some chopped n screwed jadakiss flows
A pyramid made of crisco and nabisco products
Surrounded on all sides by San Francisco startups
Selling virtual prada to flocks of Episcopal mamas
Picture me rolling down a hill with a miserable llama
We roll faster and faster with perpetual scowls
then start a funk band called the electrical nouns
Signifying the power of words to aid or kill
I'm Lao Tzu from the block like J-Lo, chill
Pelting Ronald Reagan with potato peels
I'm Neil-Gaiman-answering-phones-for-NATO real
I'm okay though, reading Plato in Wako

...

Also naked going ape shit trying to re-define the sacred
Deconstruct the matrix to see how map becomes territory
The Baudrillardian hyperreal, that's a scary story
"Very gory" I comment after watching all of human history on GodTube
Odd dude who's got few qualms with all fools
Lifestyles are like your friend count on Facebook in that who cares
If I were preparing a fruit salad, I'd cube pears
I'm too scared of needles to give blood but one time I scuba dove
With the power to bring forth the day's riches, call me Super Poem
"Luke is home!" Padme calls as Darth Vader grills veggie burgers
Princess Leah dances in the living room, she's become a heavy twerker
Steady, surfers, coast like Johnny tsunami
Open your eyes, they've gone and branded water, Dasani
Track Name: PRAYER FOR ALL SENTIENT BEINGS
if you're sentient raise your paws to the galaxy
if you're sentient raise your paws to the galaxy
if you're sentient raise your claws to the galaxy
surrender to the mystery, release your maladies

if you're sentient raise your paws to the galaxy
if you're sentient raise your hooves to the galaxy
if you're sentient raise your flaws to the galaxy
surrender to the mystery, actually do that actually

An open Macbook glows in a dark basement
"Be the glitch that you want to see in the matrix"
Some dude once tweeted that and I liked the meme
So I'll propagate it onward while munching a mangosteen
A cute (acute) kid who tries angles (triangles) like isosceles
You other squares are obtuse, Euclidean geometry
Your pastor's homily can't tell you what existence means
That, you've got to determine alone, it's tragicomedy
But chill, man, actually, that's, like, an opportunity
I think it was Nabokov who said "Create your own reality!"
So I bought real estate in an imaginary meadow
Built a fun love-castle and said fuck you to Gipetto
Now I use silly non sequitur raps that make people laugh
to propel myself to lands unsullied by man's language traps
you can't vanquish that even if you smite my physical frame
Because I'm everything at once like long-haired mystics explain
In various texts that you haven't read because you discount
the obscure in favor of cutting coupons for Walmart discounts
And that's cool, do your thing while I contemplate this wall art
I think it's saying something about how we cherish tall smart
handsome straight famous white males more than other humans
Everyone is equally beautiful and equally stupid
I watch Home Improvement to consider its targeted demographic
Then chuck my television over the edge of the Grand Canyon
Then climb down and clean it up because fuck littering
For me plastic bottles on sea shores tend to be embittering

if you're sentient raise your paws to the galaxy
if you're sentient raise your hooves to the galaxy
if you're sentient raise your flippers to the galaxy
surrender to the mystery, release your maladies

if you're sentient raise your paws to the galaxy
if you're sentient raise your feelers to the galaxy
if you're sentient raise your claws to the galaxy
surrender to the mystery, actually do that actually

Stare into the void until the void stares into me
It's all one burrito, man, I'm yung Tat Tvam Asi
Listening to KOOL A.D. and reading Murakami
Might transport me to dreamscapes complete with purest swamis
"I'm here with Gandhi, what do you have to say to the human race?"
"The next time you feel violent just put on a De La Soul tape
and smoke some Bob Hope, that will make your soul great."
Really you can transmute frustration into poems or pottery
Type of dude to do some baffling shit if he won the lottery
Probably create an alternative educational institution
Then build a sustainable off-grid home to join that movement
Donate to the Gates Foundation and inner city art programs
Give the rest to the World Wildlife Fund and keep making rap jams
Frankly I don't condone delaying that which makes soul glow
Because projected ideal futures are illusions like the Truman Show
Some humans know things that they can't articulate
And some hobos are far wiser than those who matriculate
Track Name: TEACH ME HOW 2 HUMAN [+ malik trips]
(malik trips)

hola dude, i rearranged some letters for you
a lot of dudes say it's tight, but you might say it bores you
of course you would man
all your top rappers sound the same, dude
i can-- sound like-- this-- too
but i think it's kind of lame dude
i'm sitting on rooftops, reading DBZ
and if you kill me in your rap song i'll eat all the senzu beans
i am the black james dean with a much better haircut
and i wish africa was left alone so we could chill in our mud huts
all your friends' brains are like dandelions when it's windy
and fuck all these white girls at coachella with red bindies
whatever man
it's all good
i'm sitting in the neighborhood
reading DBZ
and if you kill me in your rap song i'll eat all the senzu beans
uh, yup
you could just

(lostboyevsky)

power level over 9000, goku
flexitarian who likes tofu
everyone's equal, cool
societies lack equity, stupid
dark beer and cannabis, zooted
music just goes, movement
teach me how to human
teach me how to human

Off his rocker
eating jalapeño poppers
Disregarding
all the lame old scoffers
Used to play golf for
many hours in hot Iowa summers
Then take cover in Delosse's pond
Under the covers where I first discovered
masturbation's fun
In that same basement where we played James Bond
On playstation duh
That was nightfire
Might be mike Myers on a tightwire
Dwight McGuire of the trite sires
Polite friar passing out bright flyers
to white liars by the swing tire
fights fires that threaten our nice shire
That's planet Earth

quest limitless
jest infinite
caress intimate
guess quizzical
depth mystical
best physical
+ non-physical soothsayer on the pirate ship
vibrant quips climb to violet-tipped
rainbows
plain clothes no extravagance
jazzy fencer who imagines himself as a fuzzy hamster
nuzzling out of instinct
Freudian
hopefully this song gets played like accordian

power level over 9000, goku
flexitarian who likes tofu
everyone's equal, cool
societies lack equity, stupid
dark beer and cannabis, zooted
music just goes, movement
teach me how to human
teach me how to human
Track Name: NEVERENDING STORY
a priest once told me that dogs don't go to heaven
that's when i knew his views were flatter than bread unleavened
anyone who believes in literal hell is full of shit like seven
hundred dirty diapers or an L Ron Hubbard emulator
hell is a metaphor for what happens when you repress your nature
i think i'm part vapor, part Will Yeats, part Super Saiyan
part linguistic matrix, part ape, and part imagination

with this macbook prosthetic I feel like a cyborg
Yet this neverending story seems magical I'm Falcor

I ponder the intergalactic and induce an anaphylactic
Shock stare into the heavens and feel like man is so average
But tat tvam asi guess we're like Matterhorn massive
The atoms that map us are those of mantis and mammoth
But we immortalize experience with cameras and Sandisks
Seems like we've become demigods via mechanical tactics
But how many of us feel something lonely and hollow?
Maybe there's more to this than reformatting the matter

I invest in animal backflips and sorta fanatical laughter
Might be searching for an Atlantis that long ago was subtracted

A rapturous communion or contentment with the inner
Obsidian midnight guess I'm fumbling for a matchstick
Imaginary lines between Jews Muslims and Baptists
Catalyze violent loathing, zoinks, misguided madness
Until I am cadaver think I'll nibble on a different plum, navi-
gate caverns and labyrinths with pacifistic relaxedness
Call me sacreligious but I'd like to move beyond labels
Not Catholic or American, just a being who wants a sandwich
Shit I think my politics are too organic to understand em
Like animagus Victor Vasquez shape-shifting into a rabbit
Possibly a tragic Aladdin sabotaging the crass glitz
Or an abstract abracadabra with homophones and contractions
But maybe an ant in amber in a paradoxical pageant
Wondering if these gadgets have made us all bat shit
Track Name: WUT THE FUK IS MATTER ???
Matter, matter, what the fuck is matter?
Please don't give me a scientific answer
Matter, matter, holy fuck it's matter
walking on a planet and nothing really matters

Man I feel so Henry David when I gawk at a tree
Balking at Buddha's ape feet, feeling spacey
I share this rock with child slaves and Chichen Itza
But maybe I just ate a simulated pizza
Metaphysics swag, call me D.T. Suzuki
Imagining how the eyes of E.T. would construe me
I don't know much about being and nothingness
But I might just be a stream of Tao loveliness

Matter, matter, what the fuck is matter
Please don't give me a scientific answer
Matter, matter, I'm made of fucking matter
soaring through the universe and nothing really matters

The way that can be told is not the eternal way
I'm Wordsworth in the daffodils taking a personal day
Science only explores the falsifiable
I'm Terence McKenna eyes wide at the indescribable
I'm up with night-terrors of brains floating in vats
And if solipsism is truth, then I'm talking to myself, drat
I'm also Alan Watts playing hide and seek with Krishna
Or Emerson screaming "God exists!" at an atheist picnic
But I'm simultaneously Nietzsche retorting that "God is dead!"
Whatever THIS is, I think it's all the same wonderbread

Matter matter what the fuck is matter
Please don't give me a scientific answer
Matter matter I just ate some matter
In this primate body and nothing really matters

Matter matter what the fuck is matter
Please don't give me a scientific answer
Matter matter I just drank some matter
In this primate body and maybe everything matters

(Goddess speaks)

"All is Tao, Lostboyevsky. Everything and nothing matters. It is the Way of Things. Have compassion, help others. All sentient beings deserve love.

And don't forget to laugh. You humans are far too serious. Google "icecube laugh," that lady knows what's up. You'll thank me later.

Peace to you now, my zany little Earthling. Yeah. Or something. Goddess shit."
Track Name: ENIGMATIC CONSTITUTION
European mutt on A Sysiphean bucking bronco
Translated Murakami into the original tongue of Squanto
Pronto is when I need you to stop desiring anything
The penny brings many things and Buddha knows plenty kings
Like that stuff but I say melt the infernal crowns
The Tao that can be told is not the eternal Tao
Saussurean linguistic signs all in my journal wow
Turn that scowl upside down maybe watch some George Carlin
Or go get a Thai massage and feel even more starlit
I'm in a bar with Gift of Gab and Mira Gonzalez
drinking Oatmeal Stout discussing intergalactic starships

I'm in Tuskaloosa eating hummus and wanton soup
On the roof of a chicken coop protesting factory farming
You're not actually charming if you enjoy dismantling harmless
Forest creatures, one time as a kid I shot a small bird for no reason
I still feel bad about that, the mind has like seasons
And some of those seasons are sorta demented and sadistic
If you gotta hurt someone go play GTA or get sado-masochistic
In a consensual coitus session with another naked human
We're all just naked humans wow I'm breaking through it
Breaking through the tendency to resent my out-groups, that is
Still can't fathom why Internet people become elaborate catfish
Like be yourself, coming from the dude who dons alter-egos
I'm eating a maraschino cherry feeling weird like Vaseline scones
Composed this rascally poem on the back of the US constitution
Like Nick Cage I seem to be of an enigmatic constitution
Convoluted city streets make me pine for John Muir's mountain tops
One time had a nightmare I was drowning in a sea of growling cops
I'm watching Fox and the Hound with Tupac, Doc Oc, and John Locke
Feeling like Disney movies' lack of moral ambiguity was damaging
Juxtapose suit-clad managers with several squirrels scampering
Luxury and pampering are probably really hampering
Your quest for Nirvana, so maybe go be a Chris McCandless
If I could I'd make John Lennon's assassin eat a blister sandwich
Then kiss some syphillis and live for eternity with no bandwidth
Because, like, man, you murdered the dude who sang live as one
I don't believe in good and bad people but holy fuck
You must have been about as aware as a protozoan
Like find an ounce of compassion, man, fuck it I'm zoning
out hitting a Pax watching 2001: A Space Odyssey
Thinking about KOOL AD calling Das Racist a late great race oddity
That was a humorous, clever, and accurate statement


See me with Young Frankenstein playing Jenga in Dracula's basement
We're all just flatulent apes and that's cool like the ex-planet Pluto
But power and money corrupt us, you know like that one dude Tuco
Salamanca, I think I'm a salamander in a melodrama
Because life imitates art, Oscar Wilde thought so, hella commas
Of the proverbial variety are recommended in this life thing
By that I mean pauses, need space and time, like this life thing
I might bring some cream cheese bars to the potluck dinner
Got love for Splinter and anyone who doesn't feel like a winner
The secret is that this shit was never a competition
They just made us think so so we would be nice productive kittens
I'm such a frickin goofball playing fooseball in a onesy
Against Doug funny and gumbi even though I have a bum knee
Pluck me like a gooseberry and savor the crazy flavor
Or pluck me like a harpstring and wave with the zany cadence
Or pluck me like book from shelf and gaze at the wavy pages
Me I'm mating with ancient texts like the ... Vedantic scriptures
They were cool long before Socrates the didactic trickster
So I guess by modern standards I'm the most anachronistic hipster
But like Kierkegaard said "when you label me, you negate me"
So don't call me anything just paint me a shade of paisley
Live in an art gallery and call it spry performance art
I used to tell my mom everything and she'd say I had an enormous heart
But right now I'm watching a Smurfs marathon eating foreign tarts
Like hoddeok, that's a delicious Korean pastry
If you're feeling angsty I suggest you go contemplate a Banksy
original, then maybe go read the Dharma Bums
Google ad technology is artificial karma son
Riff Raff on the radio at the bat mitzvah
Picture me rolling rice paper to make scrumptious spring rolls
And speaking odd slang that sounds to adults like dumbshit lingo
I'm on Uranus playing plinko with john cage and Pink though
Thinking too big to fail nah, didn't Titanic sink bro?
Track Name: WORLD'S A GREAT LABYRINTH
ennui leads to a fifth and a sixth beer
lying on hard wood. "how did i get here?"
ceiling cracks intricate, world's a great labyrinth
take a sip, cheers

Type of dude to accidentally drop something then leave it there
Type of schlub to sleep in when I probably gotta be somewhere
I'm snapchatting a rose juxtaposed to a city backdrop
Wondering if it has to be a world of haves and have nots
idk, I decay like elk and dandelions
universe a pretty scary place, but damn it's vibrant
What if I just rap to have fun? What then?
Trust pens to just bend my world into some lush zen
Distrust men with expensive watches and scowls
follow your inner moonlight like the dude who wrote howl

ennui leads to a fifth and a sixth beer
lying on hard wood. "how did i get here?"
ceiling cracks intricate, world's a great labyrinth
take a sip, cheers

I'm listening to Mogwai reading Wind-Up Bird Chronicle
Feeling how Whitman felt when he wrote about the astronomer
Figuring I could publish worlds of words under a moniker
Or do a normal thing, get married, Chandler and Monica
For now I'm ghost trapped in beat, phantom of the opera
Discordianist Pope who used to think a lot about God and stuff
Harmonic jazz cynic playing my sardonica
Kudos if you can catch em all like Onnix, bruh
Intoxicated art for Nietzsche like we just popped Ciroc
Keeps me in opposition to power no panopticon
Malicious sir-haunt-a-lots in vans like soccer moms
Got me feeling this thing called man really oughta rot
But then again we're all natural like how impalas run
So I guess what's tragic is organic, man that's a lotta thought
But then we've also got the Thich Nhat Hanhs and the mozeltovs
So maybe we're cool and alright and we don't gotta stop

But we need to get our brain game up like Tom Hobbes or Spock
Because we often look parodic pop; is the Office on?
Patriarchies tell too many cock tails umm malatov
So men walk around thinking they're superhuman, comicon
When I was a kid I used to search for frogs in the pond a lot
Nowadays in the city feel we live too fast, you know, Ramadan
But Just another inexplicable human like your mom and pop
So who am I to claim knowledge, um, reconnaissance
Just damn, I see us destroy each other and like flog the tots
And feel its a cruel farce but don't have the gravitas
To be heard so I'll quote the words of Kurt Vonnegut
Dammit babies you've got to be kind, promise us
I said I guess I'll just quote the words of Mr. Vonnegut
Dammit babies you've got to be kind, promise us
I said I guess I'll just quote the words of Mr. Vonnegut
Dammit babies you've got to be kind, promise us

ennui leads to a fifth and a sixth beer
lying on hard wood. "how did i get here?"
ceiling cracks intricate, world's a great labyrinth
take a sip, cheers
Track Name: THE NEXT CHAPTER [+ malik trips]
(malik trips)

(LOSTBOYEVSKY)

the dude with the holes in his unmatched socks
LOSTBOY is to rap as key is to lock
nerd-punk band called Archimedes' Snaggletooth
mostly habitually avoiding gaggles of fools
once haggled with tuk-tuk dudes in Siem Reap, Cambodia
don't be surprised one day if i up and move to Estonia
kicking poems and stuff at Stonehenge, feeling stoned as fuck
mostly rad luck for a loner schmuck eating toasted nuts
i'm eating a peanut butter and honey taco in a cabin
seriously, i'm in a Canadian cabin
zany and blabbin'
the mangiest captain
deranged and i'm fappin'
with alien magic
lazily tragic
insane and i'm wacky
Will Blake but more crafty
got scales man i'm nasty
the Matrix but daffy
tastefully savvy
gracious and happy
elated and sappy
or deflated and snappy
conflated with candy
flatulating 'cuz bad cheese
and gamey Krabby Patties
wait don't depants me
let's mate under crab tree
"emaciated" spelled backwards
space jam plus rad herb
sad nerds
water hazards
Honest Abe's Burgers, dapper
the Mad Hatter chatters faster
then bursts into laughter
can't escape the dark matter but we're onto the next chapter

the next chapter
the next chapter
the next chapter
can't escape the dark matter
onto the next chapter

just turn the page, we're onto the next chapter
just turn the page, we're onto the next chapter
just turn the page, we're onto the next chapter
just turn the page, we're onto the next chapter